To know, that i'll always be second best to you...  Yeah, i don't like it.
I look at you and know that i'll never be good enough.
I'll never be the one that you cry for when you hear a sappy love song.
I'll never be the one that you think of as you fall asleep....

   No, i don't like it... [But it's not going to kill me... yet.]
I just refuse to think about what would happen to me if you left me, if she came back into our lives.
I didn't want to tell you this.
I sent her a message.
She acted like she didn't remember the atrocity of her past...
Which she might not.

I don't want to say any of this to your face...
But you know,
You might have figured her into your life more than she ever did you.
[Alone again...]
[It's so contagious.]

[Kissing over and over again... My pleasure is in my fear, you'll never be alone again.]
I don't know what to do. I know that i love you, and life without you would be so hard. Now that I have realized how alone I am, I know life without some one who can stand me would be really difficult. All I know is right now, I'm your's. If you want to change that, you're goign to be the one to do it... Again.
[You'll suffer, leave your old life.]
I know one thing though, I'm having a hard time with this whole, 'Second Best' thing.

I know you told me everything you did, because you wanted me to have some faith in you again, at least i think that's why you did it. And I'm fighting to have that little bit of faith. But for some reason I'm so jumpy still. I'm afraid at the drop of a hat you're going to walk out an leave me... again Just because some other girl who doesn't know your deep dark secret, or care walks into your life. It wouldn't matter who it was. Some people, yeah would hurt more than other's. But overall it would still just hurt that I would have to life knowing fully what my gut is already telling me. That you don't love me like you used to.

*Sigh* I don't want to think like this... i really want to trust you... but i just don't know why i feel like you're falling-out-while-drunk, was more premeditated than what you let on. I want to believe that you still love me. I really do. I just want to know that I'm not a burden on you; i know i'm annoying to you sometimes... but i would like to think that it's not all the time. I know that I love you, probably more now than I did. Maybe we're just different in that way, i fall into love gradually, while you love less as time goes on...  I don't want to believe that. I want to believe that you love me more now than ever, more than you loved her..

But I know that the chances of that are a good thousand to one, in short it's not going to happen. I just hope you never stop loving me completely. 'Cause then it might kill me.

-Aura